Love you Forever....Like you sometimes

I love love love my children. I can't imagine my life without them in it. I would give my life in a heartbeat for them. Well, if you ignore the time that we were at my oldest son's little league game and a baseball came flying over the fence towards the bleachers where we were all sitting. Instinctively, I raised my hands to cover my head while leaving my other three children exposed. But in my defense, they are young. Their teeth would have grown back.

Anyway, when I started this journey of parenthood, I never realized that even though I would always love my kids, I wouldn't necessarily always like them. I feel this battle most strongly with my youngest. On her good days, she is feisty, spirited, opinionated, and full of life. On her bad days, she is bossy, stubborn, unyielding, and full of fight. As much as I would like to say she gets it from my husband, I know it's me packaged in a little four year old's body. It's me unredeemed, unchanneled, untrained. She'll get there, but in the interim, we don't always get along.

I have to remind myself constantly that one day, she and I will get along famously. Most of my friends are feisty, spirited, opinionated, and full of life. Channeled in the right direction, these are the people who get things done, influence people, and change the world. It just kind of stinks to be the mom of one right now.

Yesterday was one of those moments. We left noodle night at our pool and she decided that it was unacceptable that her brothers dared to get in the car before her. She became inconsolable, screaming bloody murder on the car ride home. She pushed and provoked her brothers, trying to get them to lose their cool. She refused to put her pajamas on, which resulted in me running around the house after a naked little girl. She fought an epic battle until she was tucked in bed, at which point she sweetly looked up and said, "I love you forever mommy." I have whiplash keeping up with her moods.

I love love love my children. I may not always like them, or the choices they make, but I am committed to helping them become the best version of themselves. Training begins anew today.

Watch out, one day she's going to change the world.